Wednesday, October 8, 2014
Health post: I am a Category 5 Kaiju (and Doctors)
I bring this up because I got my Annual Physical Examination results today. And as I expected, the first thing the doctor told me was my BMI, and the second one (after a brief glance at a chart beside her) was that I was something like a "class 2 obese" which means "really bad" but I found it kind of awesome in a Category 5 Kaiju in Pacific Rim kind of way.
I kid, because really, I was expecting that. Been tagged as overweight / obese since maybe 2007? Whatevs, right? But the doctor had some news that did concern me. Both my fasting blood sugar and cholesterol were borderline high.
So, that kind of brought me up short.
Here I've been over the past year on this health resolution, exercising 3-4 times a week, eating typically whole wheat cereal and yogurt for breakfast; brown rice, veggies and fish for lunch; salad for dinner, avoiding soda and sugary drinks as much as possible. I exercise so regularly a cardiologist diagnosed my arrhythmia as due to activity and not an abnormality -- my knees are in fact starting to pain me from running and football. And yet! AND YET. Still here we are. To say it is frustrating is an understatement. Goodness, what else do I need to do?
I still believe in Health at Every Size and my goal in all of these lifestyle improvements is to be healthy, but what do you do when your blood tests come back and say that, in fact, your efforts are a failure? It's one thing to be heavy but have great stats; but heavy AND borderline pre-diabetic? That's not good at all.
If there's any consolation (hah!) in any of this, it's that I found a doctor who was at least willing to listen to my history -- a doctor who didn't look incredulous when I brought up my exercise and diet routine. For the first time, and maybe this is because she herself went from a size 24 to a size 18 in one year, I found someone who understood my frustration. She patiently explained to me that since I have diabetes in the family, I could be predisposed to it despite my efforts at eating well. And she was open that my current struggles could be thyroid or hormone-induced. Just being acknowledged in this way is such a huge relief -- because in the past, whenever I've brought this up to previous doctors, I just got a lecture on "eating less than you burn" and a prescription for vitamin B1. Fat lot of good that did to me.
So what's next? I'm going to see an endocrinologist as per my doctor's recommendation. And after that? We'll see.
I'm sorry if this post is not as positive or encouraging as before. It just sucks all around. It's my body, I know, not a problem to solve, but sometimes I do wish there was a key to understanding it all.